lifes lessons

Marketing…

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So now im requested by management to “self market” myself! I dont know how to do this and still maintain my values of Islam..ie humility, no pride, not brining attention to yourself! a bit of a mixup ill say! They say that I do everything and all my work so well but I dont involve anyone in the process..i work hard and then present the end result ( which is always good, Alhamdulillah) but now they want me to keep telling people what im busy with, how hard Im working etc…i cant do that! in my religon we take least credit for everything..thats the beauty of it all…you shine more like that…these stupid western values of attention seeking..i dont know how to do it 😦
i dont know if i should be doing it!
and also it seems liek in every circumstance i must punt myself ( not directly) but use every chance to show them what im upto, how proactive i am, how im interetsed in other things…
tough one…need to think hard about this…have people before me done the same? 
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M4Life

Allah please take me for Hajj :)

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We took a chance and registered for Hajj in May with not much of a plan to actually go ahead…Now that its getting closer and we have not been accepted by quota system (due to our age!) its killing me…only now I know how much I really want to go..I can feel it..oh Allah please, please, let me go this year, Inshallah!
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M4life

Career crisis

I’m having a career crisis – im not even in the mid of my career ( try 3 years down the track only!) and Im tired. I guess its because I am confused about what I want.Or what I though I wanted wasn’t quite right anymore 😦

I need inspiration and guidance from Allah. I have neglected my duty to Him recently ( very bad girl!) but Inshallah I will revive this again NOW!
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M4life


Being a mother…


I had the most fabulous weekend- I spent the weekend babysitting my 9 year old sister Sumayya and we had a wonderful time! It was scary in that I had a responsibility towards her – and she got sick and i had to nurse her at night – and if I might say so myself, I think I did pretty fine! Alhamdulillah, she is an angel so it made it that much easier to handle! We went out, did shopping , did all her favorite things ( ok , so i spoilt her!). I surprised myself by being so patient and giving and always wanting to make sure she was happy and ok. But I also learnt that it was a different life having kids…they need your time and attention and all your activities for the weekend revolve around them! It was probably easier this weekend because my husband was away so I COULD give up all my time for her! But after this w/end I respect single mothers who do it by themselves- its not easy driving around, managing the house, working all by yourself- so heres to single mothers!

 
So now Im at work and I miss her so much! Cant wait to get home to be with her again!
 
So that was my practice lesson for being a mother one day, Inshallah.
I loved it 🙂
 
M4life

Everything happens for a reason!

If I ever felt Allahs presence and love, it was now. I had a procedure done in hospital recently and I had so much faith in Allah that Alhamdulillah, I had so little pain and I recovered so well! People cannot believe me when I say that it went so well with so little pain and discomfort.

Everything happens for a reason , that’s for sure. It also allowed me time off from work to be at home and so things I would never had a chance to do – I relaxed, I organised myself, I cleaned up the house and I had a glorious time, Alhamdulillah.

Why cant we always just trust in Allah? He always wants the best for us.

 
Everything happens for a reason. As Muslims, this is our greatest gift – faith in this statement and that Allah is in control of everything, Alhamdulillah 🙂

When people put others on pedestals….

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Today I am very disturbed..not in the head ( Ok, maybe there too!) but certainly in my heart. Why is it that certain people feel that what they do, what their children do and go through is the end of the world? why do people feel like their problems are thebiggest in the world, and what their kids are studying , and how difficult their lives are is not comparable to anyone else? Yesterday I voiced my opinion that I hate it when certain people I know do that – they completey exaggerate the situation and make it out that their family is the most special in the world, and nothing YOU go through is ever significant enough. Also these people brainwash MY family to believe their story and make them feel inadequate. so now members of my family are defending these people and feeling sorry for them! I cannot handle it. Its so unfair. At the end of the  month this person will be finishing their studies , which i admit is a great achievement. But excuse me, we ALL went through it! And it was really tuff, and we were married and I had moved to another city so we all went through tough times. But we dont see anyone else throwing us a party – we just take it all in our stride, Alhamdulillah.
I am so angry that they brainwash people too! That kills me. My only comfort is that Allah sees me for what I am and what I go through becasue he is always with me through it all. I dont need any recognition from any one else but Him. I just need to get through the end of this month when this person gets their brand new title of “Doctor” and everyone else has kissed their feet and made a huge fuss and Inshallah it will be easier for me thereafter.
Sorry I know Im whining a bit, but hey I needed to! I now feel a bit better, Alhamdulillah
M4life

Post Ramadaan Post about Ramadaan


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I have had so many thoughts that I wanted to post recently but they keep getting stale cos I have had no time to post them!
So pardon my Ramadaan post – it might be late but still so important to me!
 
Suhoor at Steers (18 October 2006)

My enjoyment of Ramadaan has blessed me in another way – I am really feeling more & more stronger towards rejecting the Western way of living, Alhamdulillah.You see Im surrounded by it daily at work and often I completely take for granted how much of their lives I’m unwittingly exposed to. Sometimes I feel left out , like I was the boring one and maybe there was something wrong with me almost.

And so I get to what happened at Suhoor at Steers. There were so many families eating suhoor at the restaurant. There’s something so fine about knowing that everyone there was there for the same purpose of eating suhoor for the fast, we were all going to go home to read Fajr and then we all will fast the next day. And also at the restaurant at 3:30 am there some drunken Non Muslim girls with a guy. They were so out of place in this restaurant where everyone else was partaking in a blessed practice of Suhoor for the fast the next day. And WE Muslims were not the odd ones out! At that time, I really appreciated the Muslim way of life!

So by being so immersed into  Islam this Ramadaan by listening to Radio Alansaar, forgetting about music and TV and being involved with Muslims overseas via blogging ; that being around non Muslims has for the first time felt strange for me! Woohoo! Subhanallah! And what amplified it was a guest from Jeddah who made us so jealous about living in Jeddah (which btw is 45 mins from Makkah! J) Anyway he was telling us about Ramadaan in Muslim countries- how the canteen is closed and non Muslims are the minority so eating is just not happening in Ramadaan – how cool is that? No more having to salivate when looking at the delicious strirfrys being made – or smelling the yummy cake being baked in the building! There’s so much unity when most people in a country are all fasting at the same time.


I would love to experience Ramadaan in a Muslim country Inshallah one day. But for now I’m in a non Muslim country so im going to make the best of it – and enjoy being a Proudly South African Muslimah!

Muslimah 4 life, Inshallah
TasKeeN